May 13th 2011,
SO this is all new to me this blogging stuff however I am going to try it during this deployment to help keep my sanity. , ,
So it is now day three since we took Chris to board the ship for a 7-8 month deployment. This is the first deployment of this length in our 8 years of marriage. The past 2 years have been work ups but the longest of them was 34 days so nothing like this. I thought and felt like I was going to be OK and not cry and it wouldn't feel any different however when he got that sea bag out of my car and hugged me goodbye I lost it. As I drove away I felt that half of my heart was boarding that ship and the other half is here with my children. We drove home Chloe went to sleep and Becca talked the entire 30 minute trip home asking why daddy had to go out to sea. That is something that is hard to explain to a 6 year old. All day on Wednesday every time I tried to eat I got sick, things fell apart that had been planned and when that happened the tears flowed again. Wednesday night I fixed the girls dinner and went to clean up and dropped the entire chicken on the floor which the dog thoroughly enjoyed but made me feel so bad. Thursday we had MOPS what a blessing that is to me. A time to talk to other mommies. I have made so many great and awesome friends in this group and the lifted me up yesterday and it was so needed. Though by the time I got to the parking lot after MOPS I had developed a migraine I can only say that God got me to the school to pick Becca up early and then home because as soon as we got to the drive I slung the door open and got sick. I could barely lift my head up all evening.
Today - Friday - I was on facebook and it makes me so sad to see my friends setting up and planning date nights with their husbands. I miss Chris more than I ever thought that I would but I know that God will keep him safe and bring him home soon to us.
I will close this blog with this verse for this is my promise from the Lord.
"Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28